I keep supressing, blocking thoughts, i dont know what to do?

i dont want to think about my reality of my life, its going to be hard to get to where i want to be, and atm i dont have anything going for me, i just gave up on everything and stopped seeing the point, ive made it uncessairly hard for myself because i felt VERY confused and uncertain, and more and more time keeps passing and its only getting more diffiult to get my life back and also ive lost a lot of self belief/esteem, and ive made myself believe this is not really happeing and this isnt really my life and ive become very paranoid/self conscious as if my thoughts/feelings are exposed and they can see it somehow, and i also become withdrawn because i dont want people to aske me what im going to do with my life..., i feel like ive stopped living and just shutdown completely, i dont think continously and i sleep to much to avoid the thinking and boredom and feelings of fustration, the worst thing is i dont feel like my mind is engaged and there is a lack of direction and also it feels hopeless because im in my mid 20's with VERY little qualifications/experience, it all feels overwhelming and daunting, which is why i supress thoughts and thinking in general but its trapped me this situation